I took a home test at 6am because I really didn't want to go get my blood drawn again. I just knew I wasn't pregnant, and I if I didn't get to the blood lab by 7am I'd be stuck waiting there for an hour. If I just confirmed I wasn't pregnant at home, I'd just call my doctor and forget the lab all together.
My sister gave me a test she had left over - it was the only one I had in the house. I don't even keep them in the house anymore. Way too depressing when they're always negative.
Here we go again...
I took the test and went about keeping myself busy while it was processing. I peeked. Oops.
I see 2 lines! I see 2 lines? I SEE 2 LINES!!!!
I jumped on my completely-asleep husband because at this point, I knew I got up too early and I was hallucinating.
Hubby looked at the test, without his glasses, and pronounced his verdict: It's negative. He doesn't see 2 lines. I knew it...
I handed him his glasses. He sees 2 lines. He sees 2 lines? HE SEES 2 LINES!!!!
5 hours later, a blood test confirmed I was pregnant and all looked well. One week and 2 more blood tests - all still looked good. 2 weeks later, we saw a beautiful, beating heart. My miracle daughter sat in her father's lap and listened to her sibling's precious little heart beating away. I must be dreaming...
I'm so thankful for the chance to tell this story. I prayed specifically that God would give me another story to tell. I prayed that I would have the opportunity to raise my children with my friends, and even more importantly, to be pregnant with my sister. That might seem silly, but managing a newborn is not easy, and the support of your friends and family is invaluable. I didn't want to do it alone. I didn't want to be left behind.
Our second round of infertility was so hard. It didn't take as long to get pregnant, but those months were like a concentrated dose of our first struggle. Our family had decided it was time for a long break to just be a family. Have fun. Not think about doctor's visits, negative tests, and what-ifs.
As my theme verse states. God is able to do so much more than I can wrap my mind around. It takes surrender to Him when the only hope left lies in Him alone. My neighbor shared this verse on my Facebook page in The Message version, and I love it so much I wanted to share it with you.
"God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us. Glory to God in the church! Glory to God in the Messiah, in Jesus! Glory down all the generations! Glory through all millennia! Oh, yes!" - Ephesians 3:20-21
Don't give up, dear friends. He is able!
P.S. My sister is pregnant. Our babies will be 5 weeks apart!
P.S. My sister is pregnant. Our babies will be 5 weeks apart!
